Does it ever drive you crazy just how fast the night changes?
I can’t even explain how much this is about my life in this exact moment. It seems that my world is spinning at a million miles an hour in the right direction. It’s almost like I have just begun to breath the most beautiful air just as the realization that it’s all about to change knocks the wind out of me and I struggle to keep the last breath of sweet air in my lungs.
I don’t know how else to explain it.
I was sitting here listening to this album when I came across a song called 18 when I thought “hey I’m 18!” but then literally thought “no… no that can’t be right.”
18 means I’m a senior in high school.
18 means my last year of public school.
18 means all the friends that I have gone to school with for as long as I can remember are about to become people I only see on Facebook.
18 means seminary council is almost over.
18 means my life right now is about to become memories.
18 means mission papers.
18 means college decision.
18 means graduation.
18 means this is my last Christmas before I leave on a mission.
18 means attending the farewells of all of my friends.
18 means my night is changing.
As I pondered these things I realized just how fast these changes are happening and just how little I can do to stop it.
Santa has bought and wrapped my mission luggage, and the colleges have my applications. Whether I like it or not things are about to change.
All my life has been planned up until graduation. Every year I left school in the Summer with complete assurance that I would find myself sitting in another desk within three months. This is the first time the plans have been changed.
While it’s everything I’ve ever dreamed of– Graduating, going on a mission, attending college– It still drives me crazy just how fast the night is changing.
But even though it seems that things are about to change, many amazing things are happening as well!
While I’ve been away on holiday from my blog (do I sound British? Oh please say I sound British!) many things have happened!
And perhaps one of my favorite parts of December was our annual ginger bread making party with the Daniels. Which is technically a graham cracker making party because we can’t handle real ginger bread. We have done this every year for as long as I can remember and this year is the last year that we will all be here since both Lauren and I will be on a mission next time this activity comes around. I’d say it was a success even though the houses haven’t gotten any better over the years.
I’m also proud to say that my house is the only one still standing at my house.
December has been good and OH LOOK IT”S CHRISTMAS EVE!!! In case I don’t get around to posting again before Christmas I hope everyone has a fantastic holiday and I wish you all the joy and happiness I can summon. Thank you all so much for taking the time to read my blog. Without you this blog would just be words in the universe. I love you all! Merry Christmas!
feel my sunlight
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