The answers that hurt

God’s timing. It’s always right isn’t it? But it hurts sometimes.

In my short twenty years of living I’ve come to learn this a few times.

I grew up a competitive power tumbler. It was my everything. I carried a little notebook to school with me and wrote my tumbling goals in it. When I was at the gym I was happy. And when my head would hit the pillow at the end of the day I’d dream of leotards and back flips.

Maybe you’ve heard this story if you know me very well. But as I was finishing my junior year I competed at the Power Tumbling Utah State Championships. I did the best I’d ever done and found myself with a silver medal and a score that qualified me for what would have been my fourth national championships.

I had it made. Or so I thought. But at the time I truly believed I was on my way to achieving the one thing that would make me happy.

Fortunately for me God knows what would really make me happy. And He knew that tumbling wasn’t it. Long story short I received one of the most distinct promptings that I needed to quit tumbling. Many questioned this decision because it didn’t really make much sense. And while I couldn’t see what would come from this decision I decided to act anyways. I did the hardest thing I had ever done. I quit tumbling.

Over three years later I look back on my life and see how much God has directed me to where I need to be. I see the blessings I received from following that one little prompting. But at the time I knew I just had to act in faith that everything would work out for my good. Even if it hurt.

But while I see the blessings from that experience, I still sometimes have a hard time believing that the trials I face now really will work out.

When I came home from my mission a couple months ago I met a boy. A cute boy I might add. I liked this boy a lot and we started dating. I felt like the protagonist in a Disney Channel Original movie. Again, I felt like I had it made. I felt like I was on my way to achieving the one thing that would make me happy.

But I guess I still had something to learn about God’s timing, and His plan because this cute boy recently told me he had been praying about our relationship and received an answer to his prayers. As he told me about the answer he had received my throat felt like it was choking as I fought the tears that were flooding to my eyes.

This answer hurt.

And doesn’t it often feel like this? Haven’t we all looked towards the heavens and questioned why things aren’t working out the way we want them to?

I went for a drive tonight as the sun was setting just to think.

I watched the sun set with beautiful pink colors as I talked to my Heavenly Father. I asked Him about His plan. I asked Him why things have worked out the way they have. I asked Him what I needed to learn from this.

A familiar song from my phone played through my speakers.
While I can’t say I know how things will turn out for me and the trials I face in my life, I can say that I have faith in God’s timing. I know that His plan is to make our lives beautiful. Sometimes God’s creative process includes a little heartbreak here and there. But I know it’s those strokes of heartbreak on the canvas of our lives that creates the contrast that allows us to see the beautiful and bright parts of our lives. Our lives just wouldn’t look quite as beautiful without them.

“Believe in God; believe that he is, and that he created all things, both in heaven and in earth; believe that he has all wisdom, and all power, both in heaven and in earth; believe that man doth not comprehend all the things which the Lord can comprehend.”
-Mosiah 4:9

So now I’ll trust in that. I’ll trust that He knows what He’s doing with my life even if I can’t see the outcome yet. Because just as it says in Romans…

“And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God.” 
-Romans 8:28

So to all my friends out there in similar situations… have faith. Trust that things will work together for your good as you trust Him. Because I know without a doubt that His plan is always and forever will be the best plan.


Studio C Extra!

Raise your hand if you’re a fan of Studio C! Good. Now that you are raising your hand stupidly while staring at your little LCD screen I want to tell you about a super awesome experience I had.

Have you seen Studio C yet? It's hilarious! And completely family-friendly! Giving away a ROKU on the blog this week so your family can enjoy too! #StudioC #roku:
For those of you who aren’t raising your hand, Studio C is an awesome and hilarious family-friendly comedy show that plays on BYUtv every Monday at 10pm ET/8pm MT and is always available on YouTube. I highly recommend you all go watch some of their videos.  (Also read this blog post about the time I went to a fireside by Mallory Everton.)
The other day I had the crazy opportunity to be an extra on the set of a Studio C sketch! We filmed all night long in a dark creepy (probably haunted) abandoned warehouse in Provo. Filming began at 11:00 pm and I was on set until 6:00 am the next day and I must say that I have gained so much more respect for the filming process that takes place to make these clips. Talking to the cast members we learned that it can easily take 14 hours to make one 4 minute video and sometimes that means filming in the middle of the night. These guys are rock stars and pretty much the nicest people ever. Many of the cast members took time to talk to us and take pictures with us in between takes and it was so much fun to be able to get a little bit of the behind the scenes process. 
We were asked not to post pictures that we took while filming until after the skit airs, but here are a few pictures we got with a few of the cast members before filming started as well as a picture of the abandoned warehouse. 

Everybody watch Studio C season 6 which airs this Monday and watch out for my very average dance moves later on in the season!
Aside from occasionally hanging out on TV sets in the middle of the night, I’m quickly getting closer to Orlando! I report to the MTC in a whopping 17 days and I am definitely in crazy mode. There are so many thoughts and emotions going through my mind at a million miles an hour and it seems every other minute I feel different about leaving. Currently I’d say I’m excited to go, but not quite ready to leave.
Next week is my last week of coaching tumbling which I have been doing since I was a little thirteen year old and the kids I coach mean the world to me. I’m so grateful that I have been able to have this job for the last 6 years and leaving the gym is going to be one of the hardest parts about leaving. But that being said, I know it’s my time to accept my call to serve so I want my tumbling kids to know that I love them to pieces. Tumble hard for me okay?
My farewell is next Sunday on the 13th and I am very excited to see everyone! If you want information about that check out my previous blog post. 
So I will see you all soon! And in the mean time here are a few of my favorite Studio C sketches for you to watch. 

I love you all!


I #KnowHeLives

My school’s seminary has started a social media challenge to help spread our testimony about Jesus Christ and we’re inviting you to participate!
This year our seminary theme scripture is Doctrine and Covenants 68:6 which says;
We decided this month to focus on the part of the scripture that says “That I am.”
During Christ’s life on this earth He taught of love. He showed the single greatest act of love that anybody has every shown. Christ brought to pass the Atonement. An act in which enabled all of mankind to be able to return to live with our Father. Without this Atonement we would be left to our own carnal state and be condemned to destruction by justice. 
However, since Christ was perfect He was able to pay the debt He did not owe, because we had a debt we could not pay.
This is mercy.
It is prophesied by prophets through the Bible, and Book of Mormon, as well as by modern day prophets, that Christ will come again to redeem his people.
But what about right now?
I haven’t seen the nail prints in his hands or feet, nor have I talked with him face to face during this life, but I do know that he plays a part in my everyday life.
I know He lives. I know He lives today.
I can see the evidence in my life. In the way the sun comes up in the morning. I can hear it in a baby’s cry. I can see it in the kindness shown by strangers, and the love shown by families. I can see it in the way the flowers grow, how the snow falls, and in the way He lights up the sky with diamonds. 
I first gained this knowledge when I prayed to ask if He was aware of me. I got an answer more powerful than I can explain. No, I wasn’t visited by angels, I didn’t hear a voice, or have a vision, yet the answer I got to that prayer was nevertheless powerful. It was just a simple peaceful feeling. A warmth in my heart that let me know that He was indeed there and that He was aware of me.
This is one of my very favorite songs about the Savior. For more about the artists in this song please visit
I know that He lives. I know that he loves me more than I can even comprehend. I know that he is all-knowing and almighty. Because I have this knowledge I trust Him to direct me in my life and I know that if I follow Him I will always remain on the right path. I also know that if I ever slip up and make a mistake that His hand will always be stretched out towards me ready to pull me back up. 
I believe in Christ. I believe in all that He has done. I believe that there are many great things that he is yet to do. I also believe that He remains a part of my everyday life and that He lives today.
As part of our social media challenge we ask you to share your testimony about Jesus Christ with the world through social media. 
To do this we challenge you to post quotes, scriptures, pictures, and personal testimonies to Twitter, Facebook, Instagram, and any other of your favorite social media sites and don’t forget to use the hashtag #KnowHeLives.

Help us spread the good news of Christ with the world.

I love you all and want you to never forget that Christ loves you and is aware of you.

feel my sunlight

Also, shout out to Noelle Bybee for crushing it in the blind auditions on The Voice the other night. Noelle and I used to tumble together back in the days of velvet leotards. We’re rooting for you Noelle!

Look how cute we are in our velvet leotards.

Buy her audition song HERE!

New Years Resolutions 2k15

Welp… here’s to the first blog post of 2015!

2015? Wait really?

In my school district, the username you use to log into the school’s computer system begins with the year you will graduate. I’ve been typing the number 15 into computers since kindergarten. Never did I think the year referenced in my username would actually come.

But here it is!

My last week of 2014 was a fun one. It started off with an awesome date with the ever cute Adam (but since I’m an awesome blogger I forgot to take pictures.) We went ice skating, ate food and hot chocolate, and played Mario Kart which I suck at. It was a blast and a half. Thanks Adam!

My last week of 2014 also consisted of long periods of time spent studying the life of Jesus Christ. I’m currently reading Jesus the Christ by James E. Talmage, and by recommendation of Adam, I’m also reading The Infinite Atonement by Tad R. Callister. Both of which I recommend every person reads.

So here’s to 2015!

The year I graduate from High School, graduate from seminary, decide what college to go to, turn in mission papers, and leave to serve a mission for my church.

Since it’s such a big year full of big decisions and events I’ve made a lot of goals for myself so that I can be on the top of my game all year. I like to call these New Years Resolutions (clever name don’t you think!?) So here are a few of my New Years Resolutions, and then a few New Years Resolutions given to us from the Prophets for our 2015 year.

1. Study the gospel every day. This is more than just read a chapter out of the scriptures and call it good. I want to learn and deepen my knowledge of the scriptures as well as study other things such as conference talks, preach my gospel and the books mentioned above. My next biggest goal after graduating from high school will be to serve a mission. I want to use the time I have right now to prepare for it.

2. Attend the temple at least twice a month, and every week when I can. The temple is one of the best ways to combat the influence of Satan in your life, and it also is one of the best places to feel the Spirit. It is the house of the Lord after all! I’m starting this one tomorrow at 9 in the AM!

3. Run a 10K… yikes! Several members of my extended family agreed to running 10Ks and half and full marathons this year. I can’t wait!

4. Wake up early enough to do a little bit of yoga and eat breakfast every morning. My days are always so much better when I do this.

5. Be a better friend. I have some awesome people in my life right now. I want to spend more time with them and make as many memories with them as I can before we all part and go our separate ways. I also want to serve people every day.

6. Be a better blogger! I want to blog on a more consistent basis.

7. Look for the sunshine in my life and stop focusing on the shadows. Life is incredibly beautiful and is meant to be enjoyed. I want to see the joyful things and not stress too much about what I can’t control.

And now that I’ve shared a few of my own goals for the year with you, hop on over HERE to find some New Years Resolutions suggested by our prophets

It’s going to be an incredible year. I can’t wait for what the future brings!

feel my sunlight

p.s. What are some of your New Years Resolutions?

night changes

Does it ever drive you crazy 
Just how fast the night changes 
Everything that you’ve ever dreamed of 
Disappearing when you wake up 
But there’s nothing to be afraid of 
Even when the night changes

Well hello friends!
Have you ever just listened to a new album all the way through and had it speak to ever aspect of your life at that very moment? I have had One Directions new album playing for the last hour and a half and words can’t even describe my emotions right now.

Does it ever drive you crazy just how fast the night changes?

I can’t even explain how much this is about my life in this exact moment. It seems that my world is spinning at a million miles an hour in the right direction. It’s almost like I have just begun to breath the most beautiful air just as the realization that it’s all about to change knocks the wind out of me and I struggle to keep the last breath of sweet air in my lungs.

I don’t know how else to explain it.

I was sitting here listening to this album when I came across a song called 18 when I thought “hey I’m 18!” but then literally thought “no… no that can’t be right.”

18 means I’m a senior in high school.
18 means my last year of public school.
18 means all the friends that I have gone to school with for as long as I can remember are about to become people I only see on Facebook.
18 means seminary council is almost over.
18 means my life right now is about to become memories.
18 means mission papers.
18 means college decision.
18 means graduation.
18 means this is my last Christmas before I leave on a mission.
18 means attending the farewells of all of my friends.
18 means my night is changing.

As I pondered these things I realized just how fast these changes are happening and just how little I can do to stop it.

Santa has bought and wrapped my mission luggage, and the colleges have my applications. Whether I like it or not things are about to change.

All my life has been planned up until graduation. Every year I left school in the Summer with complete assurance that I would find myself sitting in another desk within three months. This is the first time the plans have been changed.

While it’s everything I’ve ever dreamed of– Graduating, going on a mission, attending college– It still drives me crazy just how fast the night is changing.

But even though it seems that things are about to change, many amazing things are happening as well!

While I’ve been away on holiday from my blog (do I sound British? Oh please say I sound British!) many things have happened!

Last weekend I went to Cotillion with the adorable Hayden Rigby and had a blast! Thanks again Hayden!
Turns out December was also a month for tumbling reunions. I got to see Anedy and Shawn who are some of my favorite former teammates at the Utah Gymnastics Preview…
and a few days after that I got a surprise call from one of my other former teammates, B, telling me to come to the gym because all my best friends were coming to visit!
It was so much fun to see everyone!
Another exciting gym happening took place at our annual competition team party which I was working. I was playing games with the 7 years old and under group when all of the sudden one of our little girls gets very big eyes and grabs onto me for dear life. I turned around to see a large Grinch walk into the gym just as a few other little girls begin to notice and demand hugs. All the older kids thought he was awesome, but some of the little ones weren’t convinced, which was great for me because now they all think I’m a superhero because I saved them from the scary Grinch. And then after the Grinch left I gained a small fan club. It’s moments like this when I love being a tumbling coach.

And perhaps one of my favorite parts of December was our annual ginger bread making party with the Daniels. Which is technically a graham cracker making party because we can’t handle real ginger bread. We have done this every year for as long as I can remember and this year is the last year that we will all be here since both Lauren and I will be on a mission next time this activity comes around. I’d say it was a success even though the houses haven’t gotten any better over the years.

I’m also proud to say that my house is the only one still standing at my house.

December has been good and OH LOOK IT”S CHRISTMAS EVE!!! In case I don’t get around to posting again before Christmas I hope everyone has a fantastic holiday and I wish you all the joy and happiness I can summon. Thank you all so much for taking the time to read my blog. Without you this blog would just be words in the universe. I love you all! Merry Christmas!

feel my sunlight

p.s. Since it’s Christmas Eve, check out these two awesome videos!

head Tilt Heavenward

Happy December everyone!

First I need everyone to admire this meme I found.

It is even funnier when you’re a family history consultant…

This morning I attended a training for seminary class presidents because I am on seminary council. These trainings always make me look at the world a little differently. There is defiantly a modern army of Helaman walking the halls of Layton High.

For today’s meeting we focused on two amazing conference talks that centered around the theme of loving people. You can watch or read those two talks HERE and HERE.

I learned two things this morning. Number one: If you only look down you will only see the concrete, It takes a head tilt heavenward to notice the pictures God has painted in the sky, and Number Two: you have superpowers.

Let me explain.

Because these meetings take place before school, I was lucky enough to be pulling into the parking log just as the sun came up. As I got out of my car and began to walk towards the building I was looking down at the ground and what I almost failed to notice was the magnificent sunrise that covered a good portion of the sky. I stood there for a second thinking.

Isn’t this how life works? Most of the time we stare down at the concrete. We spend most of our time looking for unappealing things and searching for the negative pieces of our lives. The problem with looking for concrete is that we will find concrete. If we are living our lives searching for negative things we will inevitably find negative things.

I also realized that the next largest percentage of people are looking sideways. Many people are searching for Celestial happiness in a Telestial things, or in other words, there are those who look for happiness in worldly things.

I see this a lot in the world today. We look around us at the things in the world to find happiness. In a world were everything can be bought, pinned, or tweeted at the tips of our finger tips it seems that the tips of our fingers are the most natural place to look for happiness. We may see an occasional tree, or a interestingly built building, but these are not what we would call “beautiful.” The only problem is that the happiness that comes from a funny pinterest post, or the thrill that comes from buying the perfect thing on Amazon is never enough to satisfy our soul’s constant hunger for Celestial happiness.

And the most prevalent thing I learned this morning was that God has prepared us Celestial happiness, but that we must look Heavenward to find it. He has painted the most beautiful things above us because He want’s us to show the faith it takes to look up. This kind of happiness can only be felt by those who take the time to open their scriptures, who attend church and strive to learn, who strive to uphold their callings, who serve others and who serve God. God always paints us beautiful pictures in the sky, and in the words of Thomas S. Monson,

“It’s better to look up.”

The second thing I learned was that I have superpowers.

One of our awesome seminary teachers shared a story about his son who has to receive weekly treatments at the hospital. He had been trying to teach his son to be more friendly and to get out of his shell a little bit. So he made him a deal that if he would say hi to one person that they saw at the hospital he would give him ice cream. The only catch was that it couldn’t be a shy timid “hi”, and that it had to be loud enough to hear.

So as they were walking into the hospital they saw an elderly couple leaving. Our seminary teacher pointed out to his son that those were perfect people to say hi to. So the little boy gave an over-enthusiastic, scream-like “HI” to the couple walking out. Startled by the powerful greeting from the little boy they both broke out in smiles.

My seminary teacher leaned down to him and said “DID YOU SEE THAT! They didn’t have smiles before and now they do because you said hi to them! You have superpowers buddy!” and the little boy said “Like Superman?!” and the teacher said “yes! Like superman!” And the little boy proceeded to try it out on a few other people all giving him the same glorious response.

This simple story about a father and his little boy taught me that everyone has the super power to make someones day better. It doesn’t take anything special. It doesn’t take a lot of time or energy. All it takes is an enthusiastic “HI.” A little love and interest can go a long way. People want to feel noticed and they want to feel important and your simple acknowledgement of their existence can go a long way in the lives of others.

So say hi to someone you wouldn’t normally, send someone a text just to tell them you were thinking about them, send an email to a teacher thanking them for what they have done for you, volunteer to help serve someone in need. It doesn’t take a lot from you, but it will mean a lot to them.

I just want to end with saying thanks to the people around me who lift me up everyday. I truly appreciate it.

feel my sunlight

p.s. can we please talk about this weeks episode of Heartland? I watched it last night and let’s just say my reaction to the ending left me looking like this…

Where are my Heartland fans? I need to talk to you!

Belated thanks

eh isn’t being sick the greatest thing?! *Sarcasm intended*

It looks like I’m overdue for a Thanksgiving post so I guess we’ll pound one out right now!

Despite the fact that half of my family is sick with the stomach flu, I am still in awe at how many incredible things I have in my life to be thankful for! Upon reflection I’ve realized that my very favorite things in life are the people that surround me, so here is a non-inclusive list of a few of my favorites.

My family!
I love my family so much! It’s on a regular basis that you can find me on all fours and crying because I am laughing so hard because of my family. There is never a dull moment when it comes to Reid family time. I am so thankful that I have such a good relationship with both my parents, as well as with all my siblings. I know so many people who have family feuds with members of their family, but I am so blessed to live in a family where love is spoken and where small arguments remain small. My sister and I are asked all the time if we ever get in fights. The answer is that our fights are seldom and far apart. I can honestly say that the members of my family are my very best friends. I’m thankful for a sister that shares sibling telepathy with me and who is capable of making painful situations bearable, and enjoyable situations even greater. I’m thankful for a little brother who will go to every extent to make me laugh and who finds joy in hanging out with his big sister. I’m thankful for a little sister who is my very best friend and who tells me her secrets and follows me around at the gym. I’m so glad I get to keep them for eternity!

I am also so thankful for my awesome extended families. I have defiantly been blessed with the best when it comes to grandparents, aunts, uncles, and cousins. I am blessed to see some of them on a weekly basis, and others the reunions are more rare, but I love them all the same. I’m thankful for crazy uncles that provided the most painful tickle attacks as a kid, and who never cease to make me laugh. I’m thankful for the little cousins that greet me with running hugs, and for the older ones that always make me laugh. I’m thankful for grandparents that read all my posts, and who provide never ending love. Again, I’m so glad I get to keep them for eternity.

Seminary Council!
It is almost on a daily basis that I have to refrain from talking about how much I love them because I don’t want other people to feel jealous. I am going to put that worry aside for a second because I need to express just how much I enjoy this wonderful group of people. I cannot express it in words how much I enjoy being on seminary council with these people. The members of this council have some of the strongest testimonies I have ever heard. I always look forward to our lunch meetings and they never last long enough. I wonder everyday how I was blessed to be able to work with such incredible people. Each of them have touched my life in ways they will never know. They have taught me so much and they have truly changed my life for the better. I don’t have any idea how I am going to say goodbye to them at the end of the year… but we won’t talk about that because it will make me cry. Let’s just say this song represents my feelings about seminary council and that I cry every time I hear it because it reminds me that I have to say goodbye to them at the end of the year. I love you guys!

This includes new friends and counselors alike. I first realized I had a testimony at my first EFY as a fourteen year old. My counselor, Kjarinda, challenged us to pray for ourselves to know if the Church of Jesus Christ of Later Day Saints was true, and oh-boy! The prayer I said that night altered the entire course of the rest of my life more than any other single experience ever has. My testimony has grown so much since then, but I will forever be grateful for Kjarinda’s righteous example in my life. EFY has also brought me many many other “blessings”. I have been blessed with, in my opinion, the very best counselors and friends. I am thankful that I have been able to attend five different sessions since I was fourteen and that one of those was a trip to Palmyra, New York where I was able to visit the sights and places where the Church was first restored.

My gym!
I started tumbling when I was seven, but I have been with my gym since I was a timid eleven year old. In the early years we tumbled in a match-box sized room with only a few mats and a very small trampoline. I was blessed to be on my gym’s very first competition team that consisted of only fourteen competitors. We have grown so much since then. Tumbling on the team has allowed me to travel to places I would never have been, and to meet and become friends with some of the most incredible and influential names in the sport as well as in my life. I remained on the competition team up until August of this year when I traded my spot on the team, for a spot as a competition coach. I am so thankful for my boss/coach, Jill, who has become my second mother in the sense that she watched me grow up. I am thankful she hired me to start assistant teaching classes when I was thirteen, and for providing me with the very best job for the last five years. I have been able to teach hundreds of children in that time and I have been touched so much by each child that has ever called me “teacher”. I’m thankful for all the teammates I have had since I was eleven. I love you all so stinkin much. I also need to give a huge thanks to all my coaches that have touched my life. Thank you thank you thank you Steph for going beyond your job as my coach and for becoming one of my very best friends and mentors. I always know I can trust you to help me with anything. You always give the best advice when it comes to tumbling or life. And thank you to Nicole, Riane, Jake, Ashley, and Lance for everything you have ever done for me. And thank you to Justen and Sandy for being my “coaches from another team”. I don’t have any idea what my life would be like if I had never walked into that little gym when I was eleven, but I do know it has blessed my life for the better.

I have SO MANY other people in my life that I want to thank including the Daniels, school friends, teachers, church friends, and blog friends, and the random kid down the street that eats nothing but saltines and mayo. (that’s a Psych reference, in case you were wondering) but unfortunately, this whole “stomach flu” thing is making me tired. I want you all to know how much I love and appreciate your presence in my life. I wouldn’t be who I am today if it weren’t for the people I have associated with for the last eighteenth years. Thank you for everything.

feel my sunlight

p.s. Well, now that I’ve finally caught up on Thanksgiving… BRING IT ON CHRISTMAS!